I’m really mad at myself right now. I keep making promises to get motivated and eat clean and I keep falling back into bad habits. Sugar is my weakness and is one of the reason my belly is coming back. I’m angry because I was doing so good. And what happened? Life happened, I guess. Busy with work, stuff at home, stress. Muddy buddy is in two weeks… and I’m not ready. To be honest, I’m kind of scared. I haven’t trained for it like I should of.  I hate this feeling. Why can’t I control my sugar cravings. I think, one Kit Kat won’t hurt. This cupcake… I’ll burn it off. But I  haven’t… I haven’t gotten on the treadmill, I haven’t cut back my bad eating at all.

I’m paying for my weeks of bad eating now. Weeks of a deep sugar problem. I’ve put on 10 lbs that I worked so hard to take off for my May goal. 10lbs!!! I need to make a choice now. I need to stick to a clean diet and start training like I’ve never trained before.

Can I do this? Can I train for a 6 mile bike and run race in two weeks? I guess I’m about to find out… the hard way.